Last night I held my Sweet Little Little (a.k.a Smith)
I was frustrated.
I was tired.
I was confused.
I asked Heavenly Father, Why?
Why is Smith different? What do I need to do? How can I best help him? Can he please sleep, can I please sleep.
Tears came to my eyes as I walked around my house in the wee hours of the night. I was talking to Smith and heavenly Father out loud. Hoping one of them would hear me and understand. As Smith dozed off on my numb shoulder I thought of the conversation I had with my sweet Bryce during the day before.
My Bryce said he felt sad for the first time about Smith. He watched a Dad with his son playing, and realized that might not ever happen with Smith. I told my Bryce I loved him, I kissed him and said, "you are the strong one, remember." He picked up Smith and held him close.
He is the strong one. He helps me and I help him. Today I helped him. And I loved it. We love our Sweet Little Little..... SO DARN Much!!!!
It made me think of one of the most influential talks I have ever read by one of the most beloved late apostles Joseph B. Wirthlin. It's called "Live in Thanksgiving Daily." The first time I read this talk was in the Canary Islands, serving my mission for the LDS church. I encourage all to READ IT.....SERIOUSLY, it will change your perspective on life. Here is the link.....just click and you are there.
Here is a quote from that very talk.
“The man who forgets to be thankful has fallen asleep in life”
I want to live everyday in gratitude and thanksgiving and I know I can. I love life and I love being happy about it... there are things that always make me live in the moment and i am going to name a few:
Seeing Smith Smile
My Husband's dashing good looks
Sitting on a porch in a warm summer sunset
Trees blowing in the wind
Warm Summer nights
Vacations with my family
Beautiful Art work
I love all these things and more.....
I love you Smith, and Daddy loves you too.