Sunday, October 30, 2011


Does anyone remember Gak?
The older kids play dough. This post has nothing to do gak, but I did run into some yaks the other day and it made me think of gak and how silly that stuff is.....anyway, Smith and I were on an explorers walk when we heard cowbells in the distance, me, thinking it was cows got excited and told Smith "we are going to see some cows Smith!" And then we turned the corner and it turned out to be Yaks! I just had to laugh because seeing a yak on a walk is the last thing to expect. Smith liked them, I put Smith really close to one to see if Smith would get scared but he just smiled and laughed.
Also I got some knew head shots for America's Top next Model. I am going to be submitting them of Bryce. Which one do you think is the best?

Saturday, October 22, 2011

My Friend

I have a little friend named Smith.
He is cute and fun.
Sometimes I get caught up in the "care" of Smith and tend to neglect the "play" with him. We had the best day today.
After finishing Anna Karenina, I put the book down and made a resolution to play with Smith the rest of the day. He loved it, I loved it. He truely is an Angel, really, I don't know anyone with as many celestial trates as my little Smith. I am hoping on getting him into a german pre-school soon, I hope he learns German so that when I scold him or tell him to do something he can say, "Nein Mutter!"
That would be great.

Friday, October 14, 2011

My Season

Everyone and everything has a season.
What is this season of mine?
What is there to learn right now in my life?
I decided that my season right now is being a mother. At home (u.s.a) I was lucky enough to have friends and family close, (which is wonderful). But here I will not have that everyday. I am living pretty much in the woods while Bryce is studying all day long. So what does my day consist of? What did it used to consist of? I used to plan a day date with a friend or family member, bring Smith along and shoot the breeze. I can make friends, I think that I have proven that to Heavenly Father, but now I think I need to focus on being a mom. A real mom. Not that SMith does not provide the opportunity to be a mother, he does in a different way. But now that I am going to have another little boy in my little home in Deutchland, I think I need to hone my motherly skills and not try to do things to get away from being a mother.
When I was younger I used to play house....actually not that much younger,, I think I stopped playing house when I was fourteen. I was a late bloomer in life. Anyway, whenever we were deciding who would be the mom, the sister, the baby, the dog, you know the normal domestic beings. I never wanted to be the mom. Never. I thought that sounded like the most boring roll to pretend to be, I always wanted to be the teenager or the baby or maybe the annoying dog, but never the mother. Now I find myself sometimes feeling the same way. Except, that it's not pretend anymore. I cannot escape motherhood like I could when I played house.
Motherhood didn't choose me, I chose motherhood.
And I am going to choose motherhood while I am here in Germany. I remember when I went visiting teaching before I came out here and I was talking to a lady from my ward and I asked her,"how are your kids so good." And she said,"they better be! I gave up so many day dates with my girlfriends because of naps and rides and sports." That really hit me, because I feel like I have never given up that stuff. It is time, my season to learn about motherhood. So any advice from all you mothers would be appreciated.